welcome to my new blog called "zetsubou".
yup, pretty quick change, but i have a new layout. i just
really didn't like the frame it was too simple. well this new one is
pretty simple too, but i think it works better for a blog. so yeah, new layout
features all the guys from the Japanese indie band "Merry" or "merii" however you want
to say it.
{ Update }
-10.04.05
lots of new stuff. my art section is finally up, i've posted
some random poetry. and my even randomer naruto comic. have fun
kids. -27.03.05
new layout. -23.03.05
i will now have my artwork on this site,
please go see! -06.03.05
blog is up! whee! enjoy!
well i just wanted to say that.. despite what most think, i dont hate pop. well,
that's not entirly true, most pop i hate. but when it just plain sounds good,
like Aiko or Matsu Takako then i like it. anything with i good toon. but yeah,
i really like that song 'hanakaze'. and also 'toki no fune' by Matsu Takako.. i think that's
her name atleast.. it's Matsu something with a T.. oh well. yeah, i'm really happy cuz
tomorrow is no school and then again the day after. but tomorrow i have to do things
with people so it's not entirly relaxing... oh well, it cant be avoided. i guess
it is kinda fun. and i'm getting my hair cut FINALLY!! having this semi-long hair is
killing me. i just hope i dont look like the quaker oats guy again. saaa mendoske~~
so i'm in alittle better mood than before. now i dont feel so much depressed
as lazy. i really can find the motivation to do anything. but oh well, that's life.
so then, i think my drawing skills are comming back abit, or i'm actually getting drawing skills.
i've drawn like 3 new pics in 2 days, i feel proud, even though none of them are quite finished.. just
that fact that i started them surprises me. hmm.. ah yes, i started on the background for my character kagero..
and then me and rachel are gonna work on hotaru's togather..
saa oh my god! i just realized i never talked about how frustrated i am that kerry lost! well he didn't even lose, he
just gave up! and on top of that, measure 36 passed, which makes me really sad. and then haha, this is good.
nikki's boyfriend, well now fiance, gave her an engagement ring, haha. it gost like $20 on sale at silver street. she
says that next year their gonna go to canada and get married!
ohisashiburi! eh not really.. only five days.
god i feel really crappy and just not good. i dont really know why though..
acutally i think i do. but there's no one i can talk to. i'm starting to think
that no one really knows me. they may think they do but.. what have i really told them about me?
nothing that actually matters. i haven't told them about who i really am. i feel like everyone is
wearing a mask, including myself. i feel so lost and detatched. like i dont really know
anyone either. i mean what do i really know about anyone? and i also am feeling depressed alot lately. i just
dont have any energy. i sit and read alot. i feel like i'm going into my own little world.
i feel like i can relate to manga characters better than real people... i feel odd. but if i told this to someone
anyone.. they wouldn't take me seriously. no one does. i feel so alone. i wish i could meet someone who understood me.
all of me.. arg, i dont even know why i write all these things down in this worthless peice of shit blog. there isn't even a
comment button on it. and it's not like people do read this... anyway, so, i just..
am floating,
not really living, i feel like i'm waiting
but for what?
aah i didn't post anything for a while, cuz every time i did it was late at night. and then my dad would come up so i'd have to close out of
everything.. i dont know why i feel the need to be so secretive. i'm not doing anything
wrong by updating my blog.
it's odd, i do that with alot of things. i never let people know what i'm doing.
even when it's perfectly ok. anyway so, i finally found true naruto style again, YAY! i'm happy, by i have to go over
to someone's house to actually hear it. for some reason unknown to me the sound doesn't work on my comp... so i'm
hoping i can to lauren's cuz i know she'll really like it.
i'll put up the links in my link section soon. but i still need to get the 3d ep. link. not much is happening now.
i feel odd... like i'm just waiting for things to be over all the time. there's nothing really to look forward to.
i mean there always is naruto, but that, somehow, i dont know.. i just feel like i'm drifting away from reality.
well i learned a valuable lesson today. never drink sprite at your desk... gaaah it was soo troublesome!!
i was drinking a bottle of sprite, and drawing this pic that i think was pretty good.
and then i moved my arm, AND KNOCKED IT OVER!!! AND NOW PART OF THE PAGE GOT WET!!! AND MY OTHER DRAWING WERE WET TOO!
dooooooooooooooome!!
but i guess it's ok, cuz only the pic of sasuke really got sprite on it. the pic i was drawing(of kakashi) only
got it on the corner... but now i have to wait for it to dry before i can draw more.
so yestardy i went to rachel's house.. it was fun. we were playing with her kunai that she got at the
kumori con.. and she was scratching herself with it. then i tried. and while i was poking my forehead
with it... rechel started bleeding. ahahahah, god it was funny. i didn't realize how sharp it actually was. so we both had bloody arms.
but it was fun. and then rachel kept saying she was gonna get aids... but you know.. cutting yourself with a kunai is pretty fun..
i wish i coulda taken it home with me T3T
once again, the word obbsession takes new meaning... yeah, megs thinks i have a problem. cuz now i'm
relating naruto to my language arts homework. in our double entry journals we have
to find an exaple of motif, and foreshadowing... it's odd, i found both those things
in naruto. motif, was, the whole speach thing about how 'fighting to protect someone
precious to you makes you stronger'. yeah that's in like every episode, and then also
like all the character say 'that's my way of the ninja'. so yeah.
and then foreshadowing is
like everywhere. it's really subtle sometimes, but then when you go back over
it you see. like in i think it was manga #3 where there's a picture of sasuke and there's a
snake wrapped around him. that probably indicated that he would get tangled up with
orochimaru(cuz his name means giant snake). also they show pictures of naruto on a frog,
sasuke on a snake, and sakura on a slug. indicating that naruto is learning under jiraiya,
sasuke under orochimaru, and sakura under tsunade. haha i'm so smart!
well as you can see i got a chatterbox... gaah i know it's gonna make me depressed...
and i finally finished drawing my naruto ninja dude! name's kagero.. me and rachel came
up with this idea that all the people on our team should be named after insects. so my character's name is
kagero(dragonfly), and his coot lil uke is hotaru(firefly), and rachel's ninja, the only girl, is grasshopper,
but i haven't found out what that is in japanese yet.. and i'm really happy cuz i have
like no hw and we have like 2 days off of school!!
i think i might get a chatter box in here soon, or maybe a guestbook.. not that anyone will
sign it.. oooh sob! T3T
so yeah, i've just realized i've going to lauren's house like every other week... wow.
and i think i'll be getting the naruto game soon... but i have to get an A on my
math test first. and i cant believe it!!! nikki peirced her lip with... A SAFTY PIN!!s
i was like aaaah unsteril!! i hope she doesn't get an infection or something.
oh well...
so... this weekend was actually pretty good! i started drawing orochi-sama last night,
it's comming along quite nicely... and i saw the forgotten with megs and crystal. i guess it was a
pretty good movie. but the ending kinda bugged me. cuz you really dont feel like
it should be over. you know, like in the ring, how it's just like 'it's never over'. kinda like that.
but not. cuz she sorta 'beats' the bad guy, but she still doesn't find out who
took her son away in the first place. and it was kinda funny, every time someone got sucked into the sky
hehe everyone in the theatre would like scream! i think erica and megs got scare.... huhuhuhuh. but the
funniest part, was this guy that was sitting infront of me. the first time someone
got taken, he squealed soo loud! i thought it was erica, but no. it was him A GUY!
erg! i've now read and watched naruto up to date... i think atleast. cuz i'm at chapter 223. sasuke is really more
of a butt plug than i thought! at first i just didn't like him cuz
he was all angsty and stuff. and everyone thought he was so cool... but
now he's just being a bitch!
and i'm also really pissed cuz my mom got so mad that i didn't do that one
thingy for S/S right, cuz i forgot to write that paragraph about what i learned..
and i then i accidentally told her that it wasn't due yet, and that why i still have it..
so now we have to have a "talk"...
aaaaaaaaaugh! oh my god! it's so annoying. i was so bored today!! the one day i have no homework
is the day i have nothingi want to do. and all the other days i want to do stuff!!! uuuuuuuuuuurg!
anyway so, i was so bored i started writting a gaaraxkankuro fic... gaah i know how bad that sounds. but i dont know if i'll finish it...
cuz after all, i am pri... the laziest bum in the world, who doesn't finish stuff, even if she starts them of her own free will.
so yeah. erg! i have to buy some more manga. i haven't done that in such a long time!! well i haven't baught english manga.
i baught tones of japanese manga while in japan... but yeah. oh and i need to buy the new jump comic so i can see if a new chapter of naruto has come!!
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9-20-2004 10:26 [pm]
so i've finished naruto 1-99... i'm kinda sad now. i wish they would've made then anime further already...
but oh well. i can still read the manga, cuz that goes on for about 100 chapters more than what i've read.
which is about to 190 or something... whatever manga 22 is. anyway. i'm now officially addicted to naruto.
soon i'll be finishing my beautiful naruto quiz and all you guys can see what naruto character you.
but yeah, after i finished ep. 99 i spent like an hour trying to memorize the seals for the summoning no jutsu, henge no jutsu, and kage bunshin no jutsu.
i dont know how they do it. and i found out something really interesting.
i love it when the mangaka's make puns out of the names and situations in their mangas. take naruto's name. you know how he likes ramen so much? well those lil swirly things in the ramen are called 'naruto'. and more. there's a place in japan called the
naruto straight. and there's a bridge called the 'naruto bridge'. like from when team 7 had to fight haku and zabuza of the mist.
and then. under the bridge, the water is a whirlpool. guess what naruto's last name, uzumaki means. 'whirlpool'. and then he wears that designe on his shirt.
i wanna do some research on naruto and see if i can find some more puns. that would be really cool!
saaa... my neck really hurts. i've been sitting in the same position for like two day...
well i've watched naruto put to episode 90. wow that didn't take as long as i though. i like watched it
for 16 hours on saturday. and 10 today. and as i said before, my neck hurts from sitting and staring at the screen,
so i had to stop. saaaa... naruto sure can be stupid sometimes. i wonder how much longer it takes him to figure out to use kage bushin no jutsu
so he can do that technique jiraiya is teaching him... yeah i'm at the part where orochimaru asks tsunagi to heal his arms.
i just realized that the anime is alot less violent than the manga. cuz in the manga,
orochi's arms are like practically torn to shreds. and in the anime, they just turn like, brown, or something.
but whatever. the anime is alittle easier to watch. cuz in the manga some things were confusing.
since i watched the anime from the beggining, and not where i left off in the manga.
i realized that that one time in the beggining when naruto pretended to be sasuke. it wasn't naruto that said those things to sakura about
loneliness being worse than being yelled at by your parents. course i thought naruto wasn't smart enough to actually come up with that.
but still. anywho... that's really all the did for the past two days.
well school has started as of two weeks ago... i really only have classes with megs and nikki... i hope in the next two trimesters i get some with rachel, or sarah, or something.
not much really to say so far, i think all my teachers are pretty ok. but i really dont like those damned sevies... so annoying. fucking wannabes..!
so guess what? pictures are tomorrow. oh jolly good day. god i hate pics. i'm so not photogenic. i dont think there's been a single
picture taken of me EVER that has come out well! i'm doomed! i mean last year.. uuuh
i hair hadn't totally dried to it looked like i put a whole bottle of gell in it!!
it was horrible!
so wish me luck! hopefully i'll do ok... and i also still haven't done my math homework..
i'm screwed.
oh i almost forgot!
my naruto dvds finally came!! ooooooooooooh happy day!! i've only watched till ep. 40 though..
9-06-2004 2:30 [pm]
a really scary thing happened yestarday... me and megs were bugging nihon konnichiwa online... and then megs(being the idiot she is) gave him my ip address!!! and so he was like tracking my computer, and he was gonna put a virus in it that would delete windows!! it was pretty scary! he traced me all the way to oregon, but then megs convinced him to stop. i think i learned a valuable life lessong from all this...
but i'll probably never remember it.but i did learn that i am a very material person. i would have rather had him come to my house and attack me than him attack my computer!!
well today was a fun-filled day! i went to the kumoricon!! who'd have ever thought there would be an actual anime convention in portland?! so i went with rachel... and it kinda sucks cuz i left in such a hurry that i forgot to bring my camera... so no pictures to look at!! T^T oh yes, i also got my hair cut, it doesn't look that different though. just a little layering around the front. back to the kumoricon. it was super cool cuz there was looots of stuffys to buy! they even had swords, and for really cheep! like some were for $30!!!!! $___$
but alas i didn't buy one. i did however get a cool little hat like lain's for serial experiemt lain... much coolness. and a couple wall scrolls which i later found out where way too big!! got the naruto soundtrack... and a print, and i think something else too, but i cant remember what. so then they also had a bunch of ps2 and xbox and gamecube games! including the naruto game! it was sooo cool!
well guess where i am right now? c'mon guess! betcha cant!! hohohoo! i'm in india at the airport! you know i really love these airports cuz all of they all seem to have internet access. i wonder why they dont have these things in american airports, cuz you know like everyone there is addicted to the computer.anyway so what i've been doing this whole time in idia so far is basically staying home all day and watching tv. you know they've got some pretty good channels. there's this one that's really awesome called animax! it's like a 24 anime channel. it's got some crappy shows like the first gundam series and stuff. but then it's got alot of really good ones. you know i never knew they dubbed ultra maniac in english already cuz i've only seen it in ribon magazine! and they have rurouni kenshin sept it's really bad cuz they call it samuri x. they changed all the names so it's like kaoru is korry. yahiko is yoshi. and so on. it's horrible and the voices are really bad cuz they say all the names they didn't change right... it made me sad. but then i really like get backers. i thought it was kinda stupid before i actually saw it but it's really good! well i dont have much more to say right now... and just so you know i'm comming back on august 29 so you all better be there!!
07-06-2004 8:33 [pm]
i haven't written for a while because my acount was broken. but now it's all better. well the fourth of july was last weekend. i went to Michelle's house on the river with Rachel, Christy, and Ali. much fun!
06-25-2004 11:59[am]
well yestarday i heard the best song in the world! ain't afraid to die by Dir en Grey. you know, Diru is becomming my favorite band, i think they already are. visual kei bands are pretty cool too. i've heard of a bunch, but i haven't actually listened to their music. i dont think L'Arc~en~ciel counts as visual kei though. but i have heard peirrott and malice mizer.
anyway, so i saw dodgeball. it was really good. a bit on the cheesy side, but that's what made it all the more funny! and that's all i've really done in the past couple of days...
today started off really annoyingly. i first did alittle more work on ENTER THE UNDERWORLD but i got really frustrated that the pictures wouldn't upload so i quite. then i watched the read world... blah,
my mind was poisoned by cameran's evilness! then i played the way of the samuri for a while,
that frustrated me too, cuz even if you on the same side as these people they still try to kill you!
and once you start fighting someone you can't run away! not to mention it doesn't have the best graphics in the world...
but never fear, i then went to Megs' house and we watched tv and ate nutra-grain bars all day. but surprisingly enough, the best part of my day was going to Japanese class. it surprises me that i can keep learning while not speaking English(eego)for 40 minutes! bweeeeeee~! i'm proud of myself! and then i had grilled chicken for dinner, all in all i think i had a pretty good day.
well this is my new blog. for those of you that haven't experienced the magic, go see my deviantart page.
anyway... moving on. Lately i've been seeing alot of Naruto. Rachel showed me a hiarious short movie about it. it was like what if they really weren't ninjas... so there are 3 movies. one is some random class with Iruka. then it's recess and everyone is trying to find the meaning of this bird flying around. and finally sex ed, which i must say was the funniest. the teacher's like "now draw a... pubic hair." and everyone's drawing, but none of them know what a pubic hair looks like! most funny!
yuuus~! i made my own layout! mah, but people can take it if they like. made it in adobe photoshop. got the font from DaFont.com.
and the picture i got atvisual attraction
